if you leave ,then i'm alone again, i really need help ,please come back ,i'm worried ,
i'm back to normal but i'm not happy ,i talk to my ex ,my feelings disappeared,i saw my ex ,deep deep anger still there,i want my old feelings back so i'll have something to treasure,so i'll have nothing to worry about ,to feel free.
i'm tired of putting my all in everything and have it crush into nothing,
please,
knowing she doesn't love me .still hurts, really does, having friend ,i can see through or everything isn't something i like ,i know too much ,i see to much ,i'm scare.
not being alone ,but having to watch people, i care or love change,depress ,and suck bloodless so badly is killing me ,
I'm learning not to care ,it's not making me feel any better ,it just make me feel like I'm abandoning everyone ,i should learn to stand again
what scare me , I'm finally learning to hate ,
to go straight and speaking my mind with out touch of others,i always wanted to ask this ,have you ever had someone tell you they fell in love with you ,they won't care how much pain it take to make you feel better ,for you to love them back ,when i do it ,i listen to the great pain,painfullest lines ,and answering ,go ahead i like learning about you ,i never want to feel that again, this was the reason i felt i shouldn't give up on lynn ,i saw her go through the same thing ,the only differences, she gave up on me ,when i did my all and finish tall ,she didn't believe a word ,i said,i saw the greatest pain in her tears ,as i saw the greatest person she could have become ,as of i if only i died before ,i gave up my love and greatest memory ,for something forever i though as she agreed,a lie i only wish i would've stop,i told her the truth the real reason i pick her ,she didn't believe me on that ,it's funny to me ,she hurt me ,i still want her to be my family ,how much of a dumb ass can i be ? i was giving the person that shot me another bullet with a better gun,
i gave up on my friends for her to let go of crap that was there ,she kept telling me ,i didn't ask you to, she honestly didn't notice anything of what i was saying ,
i guess, I'm saying this again ,this website is so lonely ,to be honest ,i kept a lot of people together ,they kept disappearing in front of me, making me more sad inside,to make them let go .just wasn't right ,so I'm so scare ,really i am .i don't really hate people, I'm really just just afraid of they done to themselves and to me ,
if this is good byb then i have go to